Tonight I was kind of frustrated for a couple of reasons. I am frustrated that people tell me that it doesn't matter if your an LCSW, LPC, or a LMFT it's all pretty much the same. I feel confused because I talked to the head of one of the youth facilities, who told me that I will be able to do much more in this community with an LCSW. However, I have a negative stigma about social workers, and what was said in class today about social workers doing more with administration just solidified that for me. I'm not interested in administration, I'm interested in personal growth and well-being for myself and anyone else who'd like to join me. I really want to teach classes (seminars) about parenting, inner sentences, group therapy, individual therapy.... It's just that the limitations with staying here and trying to get a degree are not optimal.

It was also strange to me to talk about termination today, because I've never officially terminated my relationship with my therapist, though I haven't seen him in about 8 months, and before that it was more than 6 months. He told me 8 months ago that he had to go to his storage to get out my file. I thought that was cool that it sounded like he thought I was done, too. I don't know what to make of the fact that we haven't officially terminated.

I started my motivation assignment. I did notice that I use have to and need to in regards to work and responsibilities of being a mom. I talked to my employee about it. We’re both still a little confused on how work is not a need. It’s also interesting to hear those extrinsic phrases when other people say them. I’m amazed how often they’re used. I hear 'I need', 'I have to', 'I should' a lot in society. It’s been useful for me to take responsibility for my actions by taking the choice and want phrases in. I find it a bit freeing to be more mindful of using words like 'I choose to', 'I want to', 'I'd like to', 'I'm willing to'. I'm excited to continue this process.